Posted June 12, 2025 - 2:18 UTC
Hello again,
I think it would be good if I said what this website will be used for. It's not only useful for others to know what it's all for and if it'll matter at all to them, but also it's kind of useful for me. It kind of informs me on what I should focus on. But, I don't think it's all that important to stick to a couple of topics. It's my personal blog, after all, so I can do whatever I want. Anyway, I'll just go over what I'll probably be talking about.
I'm a big music guy, for one. I'm maybe a bit of a hipster in terms of taste, but I try not to be a snobby prick about it. I listen to a lot of more obscure music and underground stuff. Like, not a whole lot, but enough for me to consider it a substantial part of my taste. I also listen to more popular and well-known artists, but nothing insanely big. Anyway, I don't think I'm all that interesting for liking music on the niche side. I don't really like talking about it to my friends, and I honestly find it embarrassing. I think that's a big reason for this blog. I can talk about it anonymously without shame. I don't know. I'm just really weird about that sort of thing. I know there's a lot of people who don't understand me when I talk about my self-image stuff like that. I know it's not reall that much of a normal thing, but I really do feel a lot of shame for everything I tend to like. Agh, that was a stupid tangent. I suppose I'll have time for oversharing that stupid bullshit some other time. Anyway, I like a lot of bands. For more popular and conventional artists, I like Fugazi, Boris, Tricot, Fishmans, Daryl Hall & John Oates, and Pink Floyd. For stuff veering on the edge of popular and niche (in musichead circles), I like OGRE YOU ASSHOLE, Les Rallizes Denudes, Shintaro Sakamoto, Sibylle Baier, Veltpunch, and Number Girl. For the really underground stuff, I'm a huge fucking fan of anything You Ishihara's done. White Heaven, THE STARS, his collaboration with Boris, OGRE YOU ASSHOLE, and with Shintaro Sakamoto's band Yura Yura Teikoku. Though, I feel like I've always deeply preferred his original music with White Heaven and THE STARS. He seems to have a musical sensibility that really resonates with me. Michio Kurihara also does a lot for those bands, and I love his guitarwork.
[P.S. I'm really not sure how to gauge the popularity of the bands I listen to. I'm defaulting to /mu/ rules (even if I don't like /mu/), where if some snobby music hipster would know it, it's popular. Boris is a good example of a band that is, in the grand scheme of things, unpopular. But, most people who are niche music fans will probably know them. Maybe that's a stupid way of viewing popularity, but it's a relative scale and I don't listen to a whole lot of objectively popular music. I do think it's funny to lump in Hall & Oates with Fugazi, though.]
So, related to music, I also just like art in general. I use that in a very vague and general sense, because I like most mediums. I like visual art, mainly anime artwork. Yes, I'm a piece of shit degenerate weeb. Though, I obviously like most other kinds of visual art. I also like reading books. You see, I'm very intelligent and enlightened. I read authors like Osamu Dazai and Albert Camus to prove my superior IQ. I jest. I have read their books, but I'm actually quite dumb. No Longer Human used to be my favorite book of all time, but I revisited it so much that it lost the charm that originally struck me, and now it's simply something I can appreciate, although I can't hold it as highly as I once did. I do really like the writing style in that book, which is probably just a side effect of it being translated to English. I found it relatable and soothing during a tough time. Anyway, I also liked Orwell's 1984, Heller's Catch-22, Steinbeck's Of Mice and Men, and Murakami's Kafka on the Shore. I particularly liked the writing style in Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451, which kind of masked the simpleness of the premise. Maybe I do come off as a dickish snob. I don't know. These are just the things I genuinely like. If that makes me a dickish snob, who cares?
I like video games, to a certain extent. I've never had a huge interest in newer games, especially because I'm primarily a PC player, and my poor little machine struggles a lot. I mainly stick to smaller titles on Steam and retro games through emulators. For my Steam games, my favorites are probably Hearts of Iron IV, Holocure, and Foxhole. I have a bunch of games in my library, and I've dabbled in a little bit of all of them. I've still got a soft spot for free VNs like Doki Doki Literature Club and Katawa Shoujo. I'm glad the latter finally got a Steam release after all this time.
I play retro games, too. I use RetroArch for emulation, since it has compatability with RetroAchievements. It's also really nice just to have all of my emulators in one spot. I like not having to deal with a hundred separate ones with different ROM folders. I just play whatever I fancy at the moment. I've always liked the Pokemon games, so I'm currently working through Pokemon Emerald. I've also been playing a bit of SM64, Advance Wars, and the original NES Kirby. I don't know, I just like them. I think they're charming and I appreciate them quite a bit.
So, I talked a lot about the basic content I consume (excluding the massive amounts of unhealthy internet stuff I watch and read), but I haven't really mentioned the stuff I actually do. I play electric guitar and bass. I periodically lose interest in playing music and then gain it back after some time. I'm sure that's normal, but I'm currently trying to jumpstart my interest in it again. I play whatever I want to. Usually just original stuff, since the music I listen to tends to not have tabs. Besides music, I sometimes try to draw stuff. I always find my desire to draw embarrassing and weak, which always keeps me far from showing it to other people. I also just hate drawing, so I don't end up doing it often. I would like to be a good anime artist at some point, but it always feels too late, and I always get sick of drawing as soon as I start. I keep coming back, though. My other hobbies include weightlifting, electronics, digital hoarding, and some other miscellaneous creative ventures. I'm not super into weightlifting, so I don't count calories or bulk or do anything like that. I know it'd be good for me and would help me see progress faster, but I'm just not interested in going that far. I work out usually three times a week, and I don't do all that much. I just want to look bigger and less scrawny. I also have other aesthetic/health motivations for it that I don't need to be specific about. When it comes to electronics, I'm mainly theoretically into it. I don't know shit. I just solder PCBs sometimes. It's very similar to how I see programming. Even starting with Python will give me a headache. A little baby like me needs visual coding. Anyway, I'm also a digital hoarder. I do it selfishly and not for the magnanimous goal of archiving as much as possible. I just like do download lots and lots of art from online to keep in my Hydrus database. I have about 20,000 images saved so far. All stuff I've gotten from 4chan, 8chan, and several Boorus. I like anime art. I like having a personal copy of it all. No biggie.
I might as well mention that I use imageboards. I use lots of different sites, but my favorites have always been ones like 4chan and its ilk. I know that tends to freak a lot of people (normies) out, but I'm not some kind of nazi or crazy incel. It's just nice to have a community that's like 4chan. I know it's full of glowies and hasn't been good since 2018, but I don't give that big of a shit. If you stay away from the boards like /pol/ that draw in dumb behavior and discussion, it's honestly pretty nice. The hobby boards are always great. I like /ic/. Of course, you'll always have trolls and shit, but that's just the nature of a website with looser rules. It's definitely not for everyone, and that's a good thing. It's a self-selecting website that filters out normies, keeping itself from being sanitized and losing its magic. Anyway, I like it. I never post. I'm a lurker. I think that's fine.
I'm not really sure what to mention, now. I'm sure there's a lot of shit I could probably say about myself, but I'm shooting blanks, metaphorically speaking. I'm sure I'm going to lean to the cruder side of speech, which might alienate some reader, if there are any. I might say some bad words (shocking). I dunno. This whole blog is probably going to be self-indulgent dogshit. No hurt feelings if you don't like any of it.